Don't You Remember?

When will I see you again?

You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said.

No final kiss to seal any sins,

I had no idea of the state we were in.

I know I have a fickle heart, and bitterness,

And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head.

But don't you remember? Don't you remember

The reason you loved me before...

Baby please, remember me once more.

When was the last time you thought of me?

Or have you completely erased me from your memory?

I often think about where I went wrong..

The more I do, the less I know.

But I know I have a fickle heart, and bitterness,

And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head.

But don't you remember? Don't you remember 

The reason you loved me before..

Baby please, remember me once more.

Gave you the space so you could breathe

I kept my distance so you would be free

In hope that you'd find the missing piece

To bring you back to me

Why don't you remember? Don't you remember

The reason you loved me before..

Baby please remember me once more.

When will I see you again?

Happy Birthday, Mom!

I'm sure that every girl out there (or a lot of them) think that they have the best mom's out there. But truthfully, that honor belongs to me. My mom is the best mom alive. Today is her 49th birthday and she doesn't look a day over 30 ;). I am so proud of my mom and what she has accomplished in the last year and a half. She has lost 100 lbs from working out and eating right. She is a freakin' rockstar and I'm so proud of her. I'm proud to say that she's my best friend, even after all of the crap we've been through, it has just made us stronger! 

My grandma is in town this weekend for Mom's birthday and Easter, so I will take some pictures of tonight and tomorrow and post them tomorrow (if I don't forget). Also! I got my hurr did (hair cut, for those of you who ain't gangsta like me... haha I kid, I kid) and she cut off a couple of inches (even though  I want to grow it out, it wasn't completely healthy, but now it is!) and thinned the CRAP out of it. I have really thick/heavy/annoying hair, and it makes it hard to do anything with it because if it's down I'm hot because there's SO MUCH of it, but she thinned it and I think it's the thinnest it has ever been! I love it :) 

That's my sexy face. Yup, be jealous. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend, and don't forget to thank Jesus for his sacrifice. He didn't forget about you when he gave up his life.

Fit Friday

Obviously I suck at keeping up with the days of the week.

This week I came down with some nasty cold crap Sunday night/Monday morning.

So I haven't been able to work out yet. I can't breathe normally...

and that would make it hard to do some cardio.

Because I can't do it half-assed. 

But I stayed even this week. Woo. 

Current Weight: +17 

Preguntas!

I saw this idea on another blog. 

I like doing surveys, and I like my handwriting.

So I joined in. You can too, if you want.

Hope you're having a wonderful Thursday!

WILW

It's that time again! Time to link up with Jamie and share what I'm loving this Wednesday!

I'm Loving... That I'm getting through this cold really fast. I'm a believer in not taking medicine unless I absolutely have to. I don't want to become immune to it for those times when I REALLY need it. So I never take cold medicine or anything like that (unless, let's be real, it's that time of the month. Then I pop pills like nobody's business) unless I'm pretty much on my death bed. I'm very happy that I'm getting better so fast!

I'm Loving... That it's FINALLY baseball season! My A's are off to an astounding start (ha, yeah right) and are 9-9. Hopefully they'll just take off and stop losing for a while! What? A girl can dream right?

I'm Loving... My new prayer journal. I've been doing devotions every morning and I've been really wanting a prayer journal so that my devotion journal can be strictly for devotions. I found a really cute one that is "green" and doesn't have lines! Do you know how hard it is to find a nice journal that doesn't have lines?!?! I looked for at least 30 minutes! People probably thought I was crazy for standing in the journal section for 30 minutes looking inside every single journal!

I'm Loving... That  I got to spend an amazing weekend with my brother! Silly me, I forgot to take pictures, but I did have a lot of fun! We bowled, watched movies, played rock band, hung out with friends, played cards, and he kicked my butt at scrabble. It was a good time!

I'm Loving... That Easter is on Sunday! Easter is one of my favorite holidays because it is centered solely on Jesus! (unless you believe in something else, but for me, it's based on Jesus) We get to celebrate his death and resurrection for a specific day, even though we should be celebrating it daily! I mean.. I know I'm thankful for his grace and for him dying on the cross for me, but I don't take time to think of it every day like I should. So this is a day when I can celebrate it with a whole BUNCH of people! :)

I'm Loving... Hosanna by Hillsong United. At my church, whenever we do that song, I always lead it. And we sang it on Sunday.. and I lead. But not only did I lead the song. I was leading the worship team during rehearsal. It was an awesome feeling, because I have always been afraid to step into a leadership role, and I did it without even knowing it! God is definitely stretching me in SOOO many ways right now. It's exciting!

I'm Loving... YOU! :)
Happy Wednesday, lovelies <3

Fit Friday? Er.. Monday.

My brother came into town on Wednesday and didn't leave until just this morning, so that is why this post is late. I didn't work out once (oops) and I didn't eat the best when my brother got here but somehow I managed to lose three lbs. Don't ask me how, because it's a mystery to me as well. But if I can lose 3 lbs by doing absolutely nothing, then there's no tellin' how much I can lose when I actually try. So here's to another week.. bring it on, Friday!

+17

Top 5 Thursday: Crushes

I'm linking up with Meghan today for Top 5 Thursday!

I thought going through my past and looking at who I had crushes on would be fun.

So I'm copying her!

Middle School: Miguel Cabrera

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The year that the Marlins won the world series, I was obsessed with this guy.

He was young, and showed great abilities..

And he was definitely easy on the eyes. He's put on a few lbs now...

But he's still a cutie.

High School: Jay Hernandez

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Okay, seriously.. look at the guy.. 

Who wouldn't love that?

I LOVED him in Friday Night Lights

And Crazy/Beautiful.

He's still delicious to this day, and was just recently in a movie.

I was a happy girl!

College/Now: Kurt Suzuki/ Dwyane Wade/ Huston Street

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It definitely helps that he plays for my favorite team.. but he is yummy.

I'd root for him if he played for the Mariners..

And that's saying a lot!

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I'm not really a basketball fan.. but I love watching this guy.

Not just because he's cute.

He's actually been a high school-current crush..

I watched every game of the NBA Finals in 2006.

He's gorgeous.

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I'm sad he no longer plays for the A's

Because he was a great closer..

But he's still great, and I like knowing that he's doing well.

He always does that tongue thing when he pitches..

And I thought it was freakin' cute.

Plus that new commercial he's in..

Where he's in the ice bath?

Yeah.

Gravity

 

Something always brings me back to you

It never takes too long

No matter what I say or do..

I still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone

You hold me without touch

You keep me without chains

I never wanted anything so much..

Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain

Set me free, leave me be

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity

Here I am and I stand so tall

Just the way I'm supposed to be

But you're on to me, and all over me

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile

When I thought that I was strong

But you touche me for a little while

And all my fragile strength is gone

Set me free, leave me be

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity

Here I am and I stand so tall

Just the way I'm supposed to be

But you're on to me, and all over me

I live here on my knees 

As I try to make you see that

You're everything I think I need here on the ground.

But you're neither friend nor foe

Though I can't seem to let you go

The one thing I still know is that you're keeping me down

You're keeping me down..

You're onto me, onto me and all over...

Something always brings me back to you

It never takes too long...

Top 2 Tuesday: Favorite Drinks

I'm linking up with Taylor for Top 2 Tuesday

 

1. Diet Pepsi. I don't have it very often, but I do love me some diet pepsi!

It's nice on a hot summer day (even though I should drink water!)

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2. Double Chocolate Mocha Freeze from Dutch Brothers.

Unless you live in certain parts of the country..

You don't know what Dutch Brothers is..

But you, my friends are missing out, because it is DELICIOUS!

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Choosing Joy

Sometimes it's easy to complain. Okay, it's always easy to complain. I've had a few chances lately where I really could have complained. It would have been the easier thing to do, actually! Instead, I had to dig deep inside my heart and choose joy. I choose to not let things bring me down on a daily basis. I choose to not let other peoples actions take my joy away. I choose to let my joy be in the Lord and not in worldly things. I'm rejoicing when I'm put through trying times or when I feel attacked because God will be there to strengthen me every time! A couple of verses have stood out to me recently, and I just want to share them here. Maybe they'll speak something into your life as well.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Fit Friday

I'm following in the footsteps of my sister Karey. She started (I think) this little thing called Fit Friday. It's a way to be accountable and just to track where I'm going with my weight loss journey. It's  important to set goals, but not to set goals that are so far out of reach that I feel discouraged when it doesn't happen right away. So, for now, I'm setting a 20 pound goal (much like my sister did). So as of right now, I'm at +20 lbs. The goal is to get to 0, and then I'll set a new goal! I'm going to start working out after classes on Monday and Wednesdays, and I'll work out in the mornings on Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. I'll give myself the weekend for a break. This is going to have to be a complete life change. Otherwise it's just not going to work. I've already got the best support in my corner (God) and I've got the best support system too. I can do this! I'm excited to get started on Monday. I know, I know.. everybody starts "on Monday" but I'm for real. This is some big time stuff. So here goes nothing!

Current weight: +20

Growing

I'm a little embarrassed that it's been over two weeks since I last posted on here. I'm still alive (thanks for the wake up call, Karey)! I've been going through a growing season. God has been stretching me and molding me a lot lately and it has left me a little spent. I'm good, I've just been spending less time online and more time in the word. I'm definitely excited about what God's been doing in my life.

One of the big things that has changed is I'm in a different small group (bible study/life group/whatever you want to call it). The group I was in consisted of married, engaged and single older people.. ages 20-48. I was the youngest in the group and I was feeling unheard. I had been feeling this way for a while but the "people pleaser" in me didn't want to upset anybody. There were some things that went on that didn't involve my small group, things that helped me to grow. It hurt a lot, but I've grown from it, and it led me to talk to my small group leader about leaving the group. Our small group broke off a few months ago, and the new group is perfect for me. Ages 20-26.. I fit right in, finally! I just started going Tuesday night, and it felt like it's exactly where God wanted me to be. I can grow, and learn, and share experiences with these people. They know what I'm going through right now because they're going through the same things! I feel like a new me right now. I'm through that rough season, I'm just wondering what the next one will bring.