Holy Cow!

Has it seriously been over a month since I last posted? I apologize. I suck.

That being said, it's almost my birthday! My favorite day of the year! Other than opening day of college football, obviously ;). I seriously can't believe I'm going to be 22.. it's just crazy to think about. So I won't think about it. Getting pedicures with my madre, going out for dinner and probably a movie and hanging with friends. Sounds perfect to me. My brother was supposed to be joining me, but.. well he's a jerk face.

I also have GREAT news! I got my offer for student housing in Hawaii, so I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY going. It's a good thing too, because I trusted in God and bought my plane ticket a few weeks ago. Non refundable and all that junk. So it's good great that I got a place!

I'm so excited to be moving to Hawaii. It ABSOLUTELY blows my mind that in a little over two months I'll be LIVING there! It's insane.. but exciting at the same time. I'm having a little anxiety about leaving my fam though. I had a dream that Kelly had basically replaced me as a bff, and then the next thing I knew, I was holding a newborn, and I dropped him. I picked him up, took him to Kelly and told her "I broke it." I'm pretty sure this dream was from suppressing all of my feelings about moving, and what it means for my relationships. I told Kelly about it, and she keeps telling me not to drop the baby (what I'm assuming stood for our friendship in my dream). Over the last few weeks I had already started to drop the baby.. trying to get used to the idea of not having my people.. but I realize I need my relationships to be as STRONG as ever before I go.. not strained because of my insecurities.

So to recap.. I'm not going to drop the baby, I'm going to share a dorm with 3 other people, it's almost my 22nd birthday, and I suck. That pretty much sums it up.

Hope you have a beautiful weekend! Thanks for reading. <3

Dead Man Walking

I just wanted to check in and let y'all know that I'm alive and well! Well, for the most part. Allergies are kicking my butt, but that just means it's spring! Finally. Hopefully summer isn't too far off!

I've been super busy with school and work and spending as much time with my fam as possible before I head off to Hawaii. It's coming faster than I can even prepare for! I can't believe in less than four months I'll be LIVING there. It boggles my brain. Mike asks me every time I see him if I've changed my mind yet. I haven't.

My mom's 50th birthday party is tomorrow. Weekends aren't known for sleeping for me, and this weekend definitely won't be the exception to the rule. I have work until six.. I'll try to get a nap in.. class at 10, the girls game after that, then my grandma should be getting into town (it's a surprise!) and then the party! Followed by work, followed by 7-12:30 for church. I have a crazy busy weekend ahead of me, and I won't be surprised if I sleep for 20 hours Sunday night. 

Even though I have all of this chaos, I feel extremely blessed. I have an amazing mom who I get to celebrate tomorrow. I haven't seen my grandma since November and I'm really excited to see her. I get to sing with an awesome worship team who loves Jesus as much as I do! I get to worship my God with the gift He gave me. It really doesn't get much better than that. 

So I'll try to stay caught up a little better, but I can't make any promises. Just wanted to let everyone know that I am alive and kicking! :) Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

P.S. It was over 70 degrees today! ALMOST Hawaii weather! :)

It's Ok

It's been a while since I've linked up with Neely and Amber, but you know what?

It's ok.

It's also okay...

That I messed up writing my schedule down and totally missed work on Tuesday and came in today when I wasn't supposed to work. Really, it's okay. I'm not in trouble.

That I almost prefer the week because I get to sleep like a normal human being (mostly).

That I'm dreading the next three days, even though I love Easter. I work tomorrow night after a day of classes then going to a movie, then after work I have classes from 10-3 and will get maybe 4 hours of sleep before I have to go to work again, which will be followed by singing at church and not sleeping until Sunday night. Yikes!

That I want to read the Hunger Games after watching the movie. You don't get to judge me for that.

That I'm watching Titanic in 3D with my friends just to be able to see Titanic on the big screen again.

To laugh uncontrollably while watching The Hot Chick. Rob Schneider was amazing in that movie!

To be waiting impatiently for a package to arrive in the mail.. I can't tell you what it is though!

To dream about being in the 78 degree Hawaii weather rather than the snow I'm in now. 

To feel a little sad about leaving behind everybody I know and love to go off on a big adventure.

To cry like a baby over One Tree Hill.. not because the finale was amazing, but because it means the show is really over.

To wish.. somehow.. that they'd start over with Jamie as the new Nathan of the show. 

What's OK with you today?

I'll Keep You My Dirty Little Secret

Isn't this a fun little link up I found? 

I'm a day late, but hey.. I work graveyard. Cut me some slack.

We all have dirty little secrets that we need to come clean with...

My Secret(s)

Other than when I went to Hawaii for a week.. I haven't shaved my legs since October. That's what happens when you live in Oregon and winter takes over.

I don't drink coffee for the caffeine. I drink it for the taste. And when I say "coffee" I mean chocolate with a hint of coffee.

I wear sweats to work. I work graveyard so nobody sees me, but I wouldn't be caught dead in the outfits I wear in public. I'd die.

I don't swear in front of people. But when I'm in the car and people piss me off, I have the worst potty mouth. And of course, everybody (but me) is a TERRIBLE driver. Obviously.

I feel much better now. What dirty little secrets are you hiding?

Crash Into Me

January 21st 2012 I was in my first car accident. If you want to call it that. It was a Saturday around noon and I was on my way to work. I noticed that the van in front of me had really dim brake lights, but I didn't really think to pay extra attention because of that.

We were coming up to a traffic light and apparently the light turned red (there was a big truck in front of the van in front of me) so the guy in the van slammed on his brakes and I did as well. I ended up sliding into him anyways. Not very hard.. Barely bumped the guy.

We pulled into a parking lot up the street a bit. First words out of my mouth were "I've never been in an accident, so I don't really know what to do." He said, "Well, let's look at the damage." We looked at his van, which was pretty beat up, from a previous accident, I'm sure because I didn't hit him THAT hard. Then we looked at my bumper.. not a scratch.

He told me he didn't want to go through the police and insurance companies. I agreed, because.. well I was stupid, and I was so shaken I would have agreed to about anything. He told me he wanted $250 for a new bumper though. I told him I didn't have it at the time, but when I did I'd give him a call.

We exchanged information, and parted ways. After the accident I called my mom. She told me I handled it wrong, but I'll know better next time. She also said the guy probably doesn't have insurance and that's why he wants to do it under the table. She said I wasn't going to give him a dime and if he called to let her talk to him. He called a month later, but I was working so he left a voicemail. That was the last I heard of him.

Fast forward another month, and I got a phone call from a police officer and his insurance agent on the same day. I was working so I got voicemails. After about two seconds, I knew what they were both about. But I was definitely shocked to be getting a phone call from the police.

I called and spoke with the officer the next morning. I told him everything that happened (even the details I probably didn't need to tell him) and when I finished he told me that the guy I hit had tried to make it seem like a hit and run. The cop told me that he believed me, and he hadn't believed the guy when he originally told him it was a hit and run. So there are no criminal charges being pressed against me. Good thing.

Then I called and spoke with his insurance agent, who was extremely nice and said he was trying so hard to get a hold of me because his client was [basically] crazy. But apparently, the "accident" has aggravated previous injuries, so now he's claiming I injured him. So, I got off the phone with him and called my insurance company to let them know what happened. Now I'm playing the waiting game. But I'm just seriously discouraged with the human race and how someone can be so bored/angry/bitter that they would make up lies just to get money.

So, that's what's been going on in my neck of the woods. When it gets all figured out, I'll let you know. 

You Found Me

• 1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? 
• If we got married... no, not even then.
• 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? 
• Wrong
• 3. Have you taken someones virginity? 
• That would be pretty hard to do, seeing as how I'm a virgin, myself.
• 4. Is trust a big issue for you? 
• I'm always good at trusting people off the bat. If you are dishonest with me though I'll forgive, but it'll take a while to earn my trust back.
• 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? 
• Nope. I don't particularly like anybody at the moment.
• 6. What are you excited for? 
• My birthday (hey, it's in 2 months!), the birth of my nephew, Hawaii, and spending as much time with my "fam" as possible.
• 7. What happened tonight? 
• I worked all stinkin' night. Not cute.
• 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
• I really think it's disgusting when anybody gets really wasted. Not attractive at all.
• 9. Is confidence cute?
• Cute? Eh. I think it's definitely a plus. Some people are confident in different things about themselves, it doesn't always show on the surface. 
• 10. What is the last beverage you had? 
• Mountain Dew. Not a normal drink for me, but I was REALLY tired tonight!
• 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? 
• I FULLY trust two people of the opposite sex. My brother and my hermano. 
• 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? 
• No. Don't ever plan to, either. I think they're ugly.
• 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? 
• I do the same thing every Saturday night.. Work!
• 14. What are you going to spend money on next? 
• Gas. I'm going to need to buy some tomorrow. 
• 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
• Nope.
• 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? 
• I hope so. I like to think I'm constantly changing. Always bettering myself. 
• 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? 
• Kelly. She's my soul mate. In a non lesbian way. Someone once told me that your soulmate doesn't have to be someone you're in love with, but your other half that you can't live without. She's that.
• 18. The last time you felt broken? 
• It's been a while.
• 19. Have you had sex today?
• Nope. Not going to either. 
• 20. Are you starting to realize anything? 
• That I really don't have anything figured out.
• 21. Are you in a good mood? 
• I am :)
• 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
• I tried to when I was in Hawaii!! The bus system failed us though and it didn't happen! :(
• 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? 
• My dad's eyes are more hazel, and mine are more green. But they're definitely closer to my dads color than my moms.
• 24. What do you want right this second? 
• To be off work. But I'm not, so I'm here with you <3
• 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? 
• Eh, I'm not in middle school. I'm a grown woman.
• 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? 
• Well.. it's dyed my natural color.. I want to let it fade to my dark brown color.
• 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? 
• Probably not. Laughter is something I do everyday. No joke. 
• 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? 
• Something I saw on Tumblr. 
• 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? 
• I really, truly miss a lot of people right now. 
• 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? 
• Jesus thinks so, so do I.
• 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? 
• I honestly don't "hate" anybody, but no.. I don't dislike him either.
• 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? 
• I don't really have feelings for anybody.
• 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? 
• No, but I could easily live without drinking soda. 
• 34. Listening to? 
• John Mayer's pandora station. "Dreaming with a broken heart" is playing right now.
• 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? 
• Yes, for school.
• 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? 
• Nope.
• 37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
• I can't say I do because I haven't experienced it.. but I can't say no because I haven't experienced it. 
• 38. Who did you last call? 
• Insurance agent... long story.
• 39. Who was the last person you danced with?
• Gosh.. I don't even know the answer to this!
• 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? 
• So many kissing questions.
• 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
• Christmas
• 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
• No.. I need to hug my mommy more. 
• 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? 
• Duh. Isn't that what girls do?
• 44. Do you tan in the nude? 
• Hahahahaha... no.
• 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? 
• Blah blah blah
• 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? 
• I did not. I didn't fall asleep until 7 this morning. Nobody else is an insomniac like me, so I'm alone all night. 
• 47. Who was the last person to call you? 
• Insurance agent 
• 48. Do you sing in the shower?  
• Yes
• 49. Do you dance in the car? 
• Haha.. yes. I'm a car dancer. Remember the show "Motor Mouth"? I would have been very entertaining on that show. 
• 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? 
• Yes, yes I have. I was raised in Eastern Oregon.. if you're not taught how to use a bow and arrow.. well.. you're just not right!
• 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 
• Do school pictures count?
• 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? 
• Most of them are. But sometimes we need a little cheesiness in our lives.
• 53. Is Christmas stressful?
• Only if you make it what it's not. If you celebrate it for the right reasons, there's no reason to stress. <3
• 54. Ever eat a pierogi? 
• Honestly don't even know what that is. 
• 55. Favorite type of fruit pie? 
• Um.. does pumpkin pie count? Not much of a pie girl.
• 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? 
• Teacher or a nurse.. one of them stuck. 
• 57. Do you believe in ghosts? 
• Eh.. I'm mixed about this!
• 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? 
• Yes!!! 
• 59. Take a vitamin daily? 
• I have vitamins, but I never take them. I should probably get on that. 
• 60. Wear slippers? 
• I used to.. dog ate them though. 
• 61. Wear a bath robe? 
• Never. 
• 62. What do you wear to bed?
• Tanktop and shorts. 
• 63. First concert? 
• Don't laugh... America.
• 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
• I shop at Wal-mart the most. It's closest to home. 
• 65. Nike or Adidas? 
• I wanna say Nike because I'm a duck fan (and let's be honest, we are Nike U) but I like Adidas more. Always have.
• 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? 
• Cheese-toes as I call them. 
• 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? 
• Ranch flavored Sunflower seeds during baseball/softball season.. nothing better!
• 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
• Safe and Sound ft. The Civil Wars
• 69. Ever take dance lessons? 
• Well, not official lessons, but in my cultural diversity class in high school we learned a lot of different dances.
• 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
• Professional football player? Hey a girl can dream, right? ;)
• 71. Can you curl your tongue? 
• Sure can.
• 72. Ever won a spelling bee?
• No.. when I was younger I was terrible at spelling. 
• 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? 
• This is a stupid question. Who hasn't?
• 74. What is your favorite book? 
• Eh, I have too many.
• 75. Do you study better with or without music?
• I probably actually study better without it, but I can't stand silence so I wouldn't know. 
• 76. Regularly burn incense?
• No.. I don't smoke weed. Lol
• 77. Ever been in love?
• Yes.
• 78. Who would you like to see in concert?
• Jason Mraz, Maroon 5, Michael Buble, John Mayer, The Fray, OneRepublic, Dashboard Confessional, Rascal Flatts, Def Leppard, Journey.. list goes on and on. (Apparently I like only male artists!)
• 79. What was the last concert you saw? 
• REO Speedwagon
• 80. Hot tea or cold tea? 
• Ice Tea
• 81. Tea or coffee?
• Coffee.. but only with tons of creamer!
• 82. Favorite type of cookie? 
• Snickerdoodle. 
• 83. Can you swim well? 
• I can!
• 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? 
• I can, but I always get a massive headache when I do. Or my nose bleeds. Either is no bueno. 
• 85. Are you patient? 
• I can be.
• 86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
• I'll want a DJ. I wouldn't want a band butchering my favorite songs.. no offense. 
• 87. Ever won a contest? 
• Umm... I don't think so!
• 88. Ever have plastic surgery?
• Nope!
• 89. Which are better black or green olives?
• Black!
• 90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
• I'm waiting. 
• 91. Best room for a fireplace? 
• Other than the family room? Bedroom. Duh.
• 92. Do you want to get married? 
• I would LOVE to get married some day <3

Busy Bee

I'm really sad that spring break is almost over. It was way too short! I did absolutely nothing and loved every minute of it!

My schedule this coming quarter is going to be insane. Especially since my boss just asked me if I wanted more hours and I said yes.

This is what my schedule is going to look like..

Monday: Classes from 1:45-7:45
Tuesday: Work 2-10
Wednesday: Classes from 1:45-7:45
Thursday: Work 2-10
Friday: Microbiology lab from 12:45-2:30 followed by work from 10:00-6:00
Saturday: (after being up all night) Classes 10:15-3:45 followed by work 10:00-6:00
Sunday: Official day of rest. Minus the actual resting so I can sleep Sunday night.

Not exactly sure what I was thinking. The worst part of it all is everyday that I have class or work (everyday but SUNDAY!) I have to drive 90 total miles.

But it's only for a season, and I'm blessed to have a job when so many are without one right now! So I'm thankful. But I will be needing all the caffeine I can get!! Feel free to send starbucks gift cards my way ;)