2010

Oh, 2010 was definitely an interesting year filled with laughter, tears, love, joy, grief, fear, doubts, hope and everything in between. Here's a quick[ish] recap.

January: The year started out with a Ducks Rose Bowl loss. Not the best way to start off the year, but it could always be worse. We found out my grandma had cancer, she had surgery and is now cancer free. January was a really emotionally draining month though.

February: There wasn't a whole lot that happened this month, but this is pretty much when I decided that I wanted to be a nurse for kiddos. I love kids, they love me, and I can't think of a better way to help people than to help hurting children. It'll be a very rewarding job.

March: March is when I got my Taurus. I love it, and it's been a reliable car. Minus the random things that happened, but that's for later on in 2010 ;) I spent a lot of time working and spending time with family and friends.

April: This month I helped my mom celebrate her 48th birthday, and my grandma had a birthday as well. I'd tell you her age, but when a person gets past 50, it's rude to share. This was a pretty emotional month. I contacted a person from my past for the first time since we had our falling out. The first conversation we had was very rude and short. The second one was a little better, but left me with a lot of questions and a lot of hurt feelings. I got through it though.

May: May started out with a trip to Eugene to watch the spring Duck Game with Kori. It was a fun experience, and who knew how awesome my ducks would turn out? Oh wait, I did ;). I did a lot of soul searching this month. I did a lot of growing up, and a lot of letting go. I celebrated T's birthday, and just had a good time.

June: Obviously I celebrated my 2oth birthday. It was perfect. I spent it with some of my favorite people, just hanging out. Nothing special. I didn't need anything special. The easiest things in life are sometimes the best. In my opinion anyways. I spent a lot of time at baseball and softball games and practices. My best friends kids (who are pretty much my nieces and nephews) made it to the All*Stars for the first time, so I helped out with getting them where they needed to be, and of course I watched all the games! What kind of auntie would I be if I didn't?

July: I adopted my kitty Uno on the Fourth of July. There's a secret meaning for his name, but I'm not telling. (And no, the secret isn't that it's one in spanish, that's just a disguise for the real meaning behind his name). I played in a fun softball game with some friends and ended up hurting my groin area. It was no bueno. A few weeks after that, I played in a co-ed softball tournament and had a blast, even though we sucked.

August: I spent most of August at the pool with the boys. I took them to the fair, and one of the boys won a bike. I went and saw Casting Crowns in concert with a friend and fell in love with them even more. They're not your usual christian band. They're home from Saturday through Wednesday so they can be with their families and their church. I think it's awesome and I have a ton of respect for them. They practice what they preach, that's for sure.

September: September started out with a little camping trip with Kori and the boys. It was fun to just get away and do nothing. I freaked Kori out in the tent though when she was falling asleep. I've seen a ton of scary movies so I have crazy things happen in my mind when I hear the smallest noise and I made her paranoid. It was kind of funny though, even if I did think there was a man standing out there ready to kill me. I finished up watching the boys, because they started school full time. It was sad, but good at the same time. I'll always have a special place in my heart for those two. I started school on the 20th, and bought a ticket to a duck game for October. A good month, for sure.

October: This month started the best way any month could possibly start. I took a trip to Eugene to spend time with family, AND go to the Stanford game. I didn't go to sleep Friday night before the game, so I would be awake at 4 for College Gameday. It was fun, but I had a creepy stalker guy following me around. The game was awesome (aside from the first quarter) and I had a blast, even though I went by myself. The drive home that night was kinda scary. Looking back I should have definitely stayed in Eugene for the night. I almost fell asleep behind the wheel more times than I can count. I pulled over in a small town and took a nap. Got home safe and sound. I just really focused on school and football in October. I did end up caving and contacting Michael again. This time it was a much better conversation, even if I did hear some less than pleasing news. It did however, leave me with even more questions. And it made me miss him even more.

November: This month was pretty busy. I celebrated my church's second birthday, took some mid-terms and spent time with family. We headed over to Eugene for Thanksgiving. It was some good time with family, and the day after thanksgiving, I went to the Ducks vs. Arizona game with my brother. It was awesome. Obviously we won ;) I also had to decide whether or not I was moving to Bend. I wasn't ready to, so I made the decision to wait. I'm very at peace with that decision.

December: December started pretty good. I finished my classes, took some finals and got A's in all of my classes. I spent a couple days with friends just hanging out and baking cookies and finding out that my Ducks are playing for the national championship (sldkjf;lajds;lfjYAYYYYY!!!klajds;lkja;dslfj). On the 15th though, my grandpa unexpectedly passed away. We were on our way to Eugene when we found out he didn't make it. It was a hard couple of weeks, but it got our family together that hasn't been together since I was two years old. We spent Christmas together, and loved on each other. It was a hard day for my grandma, but she had her family around her to love and support her. I had a good week of quality time with my four year old niece. She's been a blast to hang with. She cracks me up, and we love singing Yo Gabba Gabba songs together (Don't.. Don't.. Don't bite your friends!). I'm spending new years eve with my brother, my grandma and my niece.. I couldn't ask for more.

So bring it on, 2011. I have high hopes for you! And maybe a couple of wishes. For my family and friends, health and happiness. For my brother, to find out what he really wants from life. For those who struggled during 2010, peace and hope to get through 2011. And for myself, love. Whether that's love from friends, family or a special guy, all I ask for during 2011 is love. With love, all things are possible. I'm ready for 2011, and thankful that God got me through 2010 happy and healthy.

Hope you have a wonderful New Years. Spend it with someone special.

What I'm Loving Wednesday!

It's been a tough few weeks, but there is always a lot to appreciate.
Here are some of the things I'm loving:

Hanging out with my niece. She fell asleep next to me on the chair while we were watching football. She's super cute and makes me smile every time she says my name (Bert-ney). I've only got to see her a handful of times since she was born, so I'm definitely loving getting to hang out with her!

Seeing these t-shirts everywhere in Eugene makes me happy. I'm going to have to buy me one, because I absolutely love it! Football in general is making me happy. I always love football.

It's almost the new year! I'm going to a wedding on New Years Eve, so that should be fun. Then obviously, for the next week and a half, it's BCS bowl season! I'll be loving that for sure. I'm getting ahead of myself, but that's alright. I'm excited for the changes in my life that I'm making, and I'm ready for a better year next year!

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:6-7

That verse has been going through my head and my heart a lot since the whole moving situation started. I've been at peace since I handed it all over to God, and I'm just ready and willing for whatever life throws my way. I'm loving the lessons God is giving me at this point in my life. Even if they're the hard ones, they make me a better person in the end.

Broken Strings

It tears me up, I try to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

I apologize for my posting being so random. I've been on the internet sporadically and it usually isn't long enough to post anything. My Christmas Eve was awesome. I got my first pedicure (as I mentioned on my last post that I was going to) and it really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Once I got past the fact that someones hands were on my feet, between my toes and all that jazz, and the fact that the guy who did my pedicure was a guy that I went to high school with, it really wasn't all that bad. There were moments where I was even in a pure state of pleasure. It felt amazing, and I loved it, and my toes look fantastic. Thanks, Grandma. After a long trip to Safeway to get the last items for Christmas Eve and Christmas dinner, I rested for a while and warmed up my voice. I'm pretty sure everybody in the house was sick of hearing "A Baby Changes Everything" but it definitely paid off when I did it at the candlelight service. After the first verse my nerves vanished, and I only messed up on one part.. which was because I was about to cry. It was good though. Everybody loved it.

My four year old niece (brother's daughter) came up on Christmas Eve and they got to the church just in time to hear me sing. She is so stinkin' cute. She is related to me, after all ;). She woke me up Christmas morning saying "Auntie, it's time to wake up! It's Christmas!" After we opened presents and ate breakfast, I was getting ready (putting make up on) and she was watching me, so I put a little blush on her and a little eye shadow too, and she just loved it. She went up to my mom and said "Your little sweetheart shared her makeup with me, isn't she the best?" It was suuuuuper cute! She's the most polite little girl. Then we were watching a movie and we were snuggling on the couch, and she told me that "You should get a baby in your tummy because you would be a great mama." I didn't really know what to say to that, but I just thought it was worth sharing.

Anyways, I've been having a good time with my family. I'm glad that I stayed here for the extra week, even though I'm already extremely homesick and I miss my kitty. It's been a good visit. I've been able to hang out with my uncle that lives in New Mexico that I've only seen a handful of times. My grandma is doing a little better, she has her moments, but she's doing good. She told me today that she's glad I stayed, so that right there makes it worth being away from home. I watched Jackass 3D with my brother Christmas night, and it was freaking hilarious. It was my first time watching a 3D movie, and let me tell you, it messed with my eyes. I'm not sure if I like it. I'm weird and prefer the the 2D movies. I could see a reflection of my cheeks in the glasses and it just made everything weird. But the movie was awesome. Nasty in parts, but really funny. It was good bonding time with my brother, which is always good. I'm getting good one on one time with all of my family, which honestly, was much needed. I love my family, and this just helps me to appreciate them even more.

Two weeks until the Ducks play for the National Championship! Ahh! It doesn't even feel like they're really going. It probably won't set in until after we've won :-P. I'm ready for 2011 to come. 2010 has been a good year, but I'm ready for a new start. My ducks play for the championship, I turn 21 and (hopefully) I'm going to Vegas in November. So watch out 2011, here I come!

Want You To Make Me Feel

Like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one that knows your heart
Only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cause I'm the only one who understands
How to make you feel like a man, yeah.

Wow it's been a crazy week! That's putting it lightly, really. My world has been chaos for the past 8 days. I'm still in Eugene, for another 10 days. I wish I was at home spending time with my friends and family and my kitty, but I'm needed where I am. I'm glad to be spending time with my grandma. She needs to be loved on, so I'm right where I need to be.

I was invited by my old church to sing a song for the candle light service on Christmas Eve (tomorrow night). I decided on "A Baby Changes Everything" since I've been dying to sing it since I heard it for the first time two years ago. I'm pretty excited, but a little nervous. I've been singing on a stage with a microphone for four years now, singing solos and stuff, but I'm still nervous. Probably because when I sing I have a band and other vocalists behind me, this time I'm on my own with a cd. Scary.

My grandma is treating me to a Christmas pedicure tomorrow too. If you know me, you know that I hate feet and I hate my feet being touched. *Side story* I was kind of seeing a guy a while back, and we were at my friends house watching a movie, and he started rubbing my foot with his. I didn't freak out on the outside.. but on the inside I was screaming. It was awful. Not only was he touching my foot, he was touching my foot with his foot! Oh.My.Gosh. Anyways, it will definitely be interesting. I'll let ya know how it goes.

Being on a break from school and not doing a whole lot of anything since I've been here, I've done a lot of thinking. Too much thinking. I went to a seminar a few years ago about relationships (it was at my church so I just went, even though I was single at the time.. still got a lot of cool information). It's called Laugh Your Way to a Better Marriage. It's hilarious and so true at the same time. The guy was explaining the difference between female's brains and males brains. He said that males minds work like boxes. They think about one thing at a time. Everything is organized in little boxes. When they're in the "sports" box, that's what they think about. It's one thing at a time. Nice and easy. For females, brains work like wires. A big mass of tangled wires in our brains. It's always going, it's always connected. Now, I've realized over the last few years that my brain works like a guys. It really does. I don't spend my nights awake because I'm thinking. When I'm ready to sleep, I sleep. When I'm watching sports, it's hard to tear my attention away from it. When I'm reading a book, that's what I do. I read. When I'm listening to music, I don't want to talk. I want to listen to my song. My brain seriously works like a guys.

Until just recently. It happens in spurts. I start thinking about something that triggers something else and then my brain is on overdrive and I'm not sleeping because I can't.stop.thinking. It's really annoying, and I'm ready for my brain to get back to normal. I can't stop thinking about a person I shouldn't think about. I wish I could. I've been told by my brother numerous times that I need to just let it go. I've prayed that I would just forget about this person. Forget everything. Forget to think about this person. It hasn't happened. If I could make it happen, it would have happened a year ago. And it's excruciatingly painful. My heart breaks over and over again. My heart breaks for the friendship that I once had. Now I'm missing that friendship more than ever.

I'm feeling a lot of emotions after the death of my grandpa. Grief. Guilt. Anger. Regret. The grief is for obvious reasons, I lost my grandpa. A person that I've known my whole life. Someone who may not have been the strongest influence in my life, but a person who was always there. I'm sad that I'll never be able to have the relationship with him we should have had. I'm sad that when I come visit, he's not there. I'm sad that I didn't take the time to tell him that I care about him. That's where the guilt kicks in too, and the anger, followed by the regret. My guilt is from being so angry with him for so long. If I'm being honest, then I must say that he didn't treat my grandma the best. She was treated like a housekeeper, a cook and a driver. My feelings were known by everybody, even if I didn't verbally express them. He knew. I hate that I let his relationship with someone else define my relationship with him. I wasn't mean to him, and I always took time to talk to him, but I didn't treat him like someone I loved.

My anger is fully piled onto my shoulders. I'm so very angry at myself for the way I treated him. Or actually, the way I didn't treat him. I didn't treat him with love and respect. I'm angry at myself for that. I regret not taking the time to get to get to know him. I've heard a lot of stories since he passed away, and I think I'd have liked to know him better. While all of these emotions are piling up and I have no escape (I haven't had a moment to myself other than sleeping since I've been here), it's a good learning experience. To love with all of my heart. Not to hold grudges (especially ones I don't realize I'm holding and that have nothing to do with me). To put it all out there, no matter the consequence. Sure I might get hurt, but I'd rather be hurt than feel like this. Regret is an ugly feeling. Especially with guilt on the side. It's no bueno.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I've learned my lesson. I'm still hurting, and I still have a ton of emotions to sort through, but I've definitely learned from this. His death was not in vain. And I pray that he's in heaven with Jesus right now, walking on streets of gold. I hope to see him again one day. I'm taking more chances now. I'm not playing it safe with my emotions. I have too many regrets from that. I'm laying it all on the line. Life is way too short to not take a chance on loving people.

P.S. Sorry for the randomness, I'm just venting.

Dream On

First of all, I apologize for being MIA the past few days. My grandpa unexpectedly passed away so I've been with family since the 15th. I'm staying with my grandma through the holidays and I'll be back home on January 2nd just in time to start classes back up on the 3rd.

Day Twenty-Nine: Hopes/Dreams/Aspirations for 2011

I have a lot of hopes and dreams and aspirations for 2011. First, and most importantly, I want to get a 4.0 for the year. I'm 1/4 terms so far, so let's see if I can keep it up. Another thing I want to happen in the next 365 days is I want to get moved to Bend. It doesn't matter when, but I want it to happen sometime in 2011. A big hope for 2011 is that my ducks win the national championship. That would be awesome. I have big dreams and big hopes, but just little ones for the next few years until I can start achieving my bigger dreams. But I treat the little hopes and dreams as stepping stones to get to where I want to be :)

My Purse

Day Twenty-Eight: What's in my purse?

To start off, the purse is a Nine & Co. Now, I'm not really a purse person.. I have five, and I use two of them on a regular basis. But I absolutely love this purse! It's my favorite and I don't really tend to lose things in it! Other items I have in my purse:

• Keys on Oregon lanyard. Weird, right?
• 3 pens from my church.. what can I say? They write nice!
• What looks like prescription pills, really is ibuprofen.. didn't feel like taking the 1000 pill bottle with me in my purse.
  
• Green wallet from Kohl's.. probably got it for $5
• 2 punch cards from Dutch Brothers (dumb that I have 2) and a ticket stub from Get Him To The Greek. Hilarious but raunchy movie!
  
• Purell.. especially with all the cold crap going around (too bad I just got it!) I always keep my hands at LEAST sanitized.
  
• My zebra print compact mirror from Bath & Body Works.. a birthday present to myself.
• A hair clip, 2 quarters, a nickle and 5 pennies (60 cents) and Christmas jingly earrings! (They got annoying AND they're not real silver so they hurt my ears)
• Arbonne Intelligence Hand Cream.. gotta keep moisturized during the winter!
• Tissues.. for the recent cold that I've come down with.

That's really it. I'm a simple kind of girl, and I don't like to take too much with me. It just weighs me down ;)

That One was a Nail Biter!!

Day Twenty-Seven: My Worst Habit

My name is Brittany, and I'm a nail biter.
I'm not saying I'll bite my nails until there is nothing left.
But when they're long and pretty, I'll bite them.
It's a gross habit and I hate it.
I don't even realize I'm doing it usually.
I'll be watching a movie and [absent-minded] I'll start biting them.
Then when the movie's over I'm like:
"What the heck happened to my nails!?"
I'm thinking of some no-bite.
That stuff tastes nasty, and at least it'd bring it to my
attention when I'm starting to do it.
We'll see.

My Week

Day Twenty-six: My Week (In Great Detail)

Monday: Man, that was a long time ago. I was supposed to bake cookies for some troops over in Iraq with Kelly, but she ended up having a sick kiddo at home, so we had to postpone. I had a lazy day. Stayed in my pj's all day, watched endless netflix and studied (a little). I watched The sing off because not only do I love acapella music, University of Oregon's On The Rocks is on it! I've been cheering for them every episode! :) Their version of Bad Romance is amazing. Youtube it!

Tuesday: This was my busy day. It started out with a math final at 10:15, which ended around 11:00. I got a 97% on it, so that put my final grade for the class at a 98%. My first A of the term. After that I went to the library and went on blackboard to work on my second final, my Developmental Psychology for Nurses class. I got a 93% on it, which I was wayyy happy with, seeing as how I got an 86% on the midterm with open book, open note. I finished my psych class with a 95%. My second A of the term. Then at 3:15 I had my last final (if you want to call it that) of the day, my writing 121 final. I got 100% on it.. I should have, because all you had to do was show up to get the 15 points. I was more worried about the paper we got back that day. I had a 93% going into that class, and the paper was worth 150 points. Surely anything less than an A would have given me a B and that was just not okay with me. We got our papers back at the end of class (she's evil and makes us wait) and I got a 147/150! :) I did a happy dance right there in the class. It was epic. So I finished the term with a 4.0! Woot! After class I was supposed to go to a bible study, but my brain was tired so I went to hang out with my bff's Mike and Kelly. They decided that we needed to celebrate, so we got blizzards. It was a great day.


Wednesday: This was the day that we rescheduled to bake cookies. We had a couple friends come over (Aime and Audria) and we made rice crispies, chocolate chip cookies, sugar cookies, haystacks, and peanut butter cookies. We also sent hot chocolate so that the soldiers could have a taste of the holidays while they're so far from home. It makes me happy to do things for other people who are going without to fight for our country. Especially with so many people that I know and love that are in the service. It was a fun day, and that's pretty much all we did! (Other than watching The Sing Off again. On The Rocks made it another week! Woot!


Thursday: This was the day that I decided to unpack my room. Since I've come to the conclusion that I'm not moving any time soon (and I'm okay with it, and so are Mike and Kelly ;)) I decided that it was time to unpack my room. Funny story about that. My mom told me as soon as I unpacked, I would find another place to live. More on that on Friday! I spent the day cleaning and unpacking, and then I babysat two of my favorite boys! The boys that I used to nanny for. We spent an evening working on homework, eating yummy Christmas treats and playing hide-n-go-seek. It was a lot of fun, and I really really really miss those boys. I didn't get home until after midnight, and I went straight to sleep!


Friday: I was woken up by a text message from Kelly at 7:30 am saying "Could you please come and take my kids to school? I'm feeling really light headed and I shouldn't drive." My response? "Right now?" "Yeah, right now. Please?" So I did. Call me the best friend in the world (I would), but I'm just that kind of person. Now I can't tell you how many times I said in the car with her three kiddos "I've only been awake for 10 minutes, you are not allowed to talk that loud," but I did my best and I got them to school on time. The rest of the day was spent still cleaning and unpacking and it was topped off by going to the Holiday Showcase with Kelly and her kids. The first 10 acts were average, but then Mike sang and it gave me as well as everybody else I'm sure, goosebumps. It was awesome. After he sang, we left and went and just hung out at their house for a while. It was good times, a typical night with my closest friends. When I got home from this, I checked Craigslist (hadn't done that in months) to see if anything was available. I found this great situation, and it would have worked perfect for me. I would have gotten to move to Bend and it wouldn't be expensive at all! So I e-mailed her and she said it would be perfect, so we set up to meet Sunday at 3.

Saturday: Saturday started the way it usually does; with a small group (aka bible study) that I lead. There were only three of us that morning (instead of the usual 7) because of some business going on. But we had some good girl time, and some good time in the Word. After that I had vocal rehearsal with Kelly and a couple that have been traveling around, writing their own music for years. It was an honor to sing with them. I was told by them that I was a joy to sing with, and that if I ever wanted to, I could join them. Uh.. wow. After that Kelly and I waited around her house with the kids waiting for Mike to get home so we could go shopping. It didn't happen, so we ended up having my family over for dinner and played dominoes (sp?) for 4 hours. I wasn't really on the dominoes band wagon (I was really quite resistant, I'm more of a card person) but it was really fun. I got home and checked my e-mail again, and I got a e-mail from the lady in Bend telling me that she no longer needed someone, so we didn't need to meet. A message from God or what? For some reason He's wanting me to stay put. So I am, and I will.


Sunday: Today started out with worship team rehearsal that, let's be honest, didn't run as smoothly as I like. But we had a new leader today and she was sick, so it happens. It sounded great and people worshipped, so that's all that matters, really. After church, I went home and took a nap while watching football, it's my Sunday routine and I wouldn't change it for the world! After my nap I hung out with my mom for a while and went and rented "Going The Distance." I haven't watched it yet, but that's next after I finish up this blog.

Say What?

Day Twenty-five: My Guilty Pleasure

I'm not sure that it's really something bad, but my guilty pleasure is watching MTV's Is She Really Going Out With Him?

It always makes me feel better about my single status because at least I'm not dumb enough to date a douche bag like those guys. I mean most of those girls are beautiful and smart! Surely they could do WAY better.

Sure enough, it makes for some awesome television. So thanks girls for dating total dbags.

Where I live

Day Twenty-Four: Where I live

I live in a small town in Central Oregon. It's in the high desert and it doesn't look like much, but I absolutely love this place. I fell in love with it almost 3 years ago when I came over with my two best friends to see if this was where God was calling me. I moved from Eugene to here 20 days after my 18th birthday. I've been here since, and I feel like this is definitely the place I'm supposed to be as of right now. It's special because the people here are special.

Return of the Quack

Day Twenty-Three: A Youtube Video



Obviously I'd post this.
Especially since they're going to the national championship.
Like, duh! ;)

Running game big so they callin it the gold rush
Hittin every hole through the middle like a doughnut.

FML

Day Twenty-two: A Website

Obviously I can't post this one, you're already here.
But a fun website that I used to check all the time is this.
It's funny and it makes you realize that
no matter what you're going through;
Someone is always having a worse day than you.

Cheesy Patato Casserole

Day Twenty-One: A Recipe

Cheesy Potato Casserole
(A favorite of mine for football games)

Ingredients:
-2 pounds frozen hash brown potatoes
- 1 pint sour cream
-1 can cream of chicken soup
-1/2 cup chopped onion
-1/2 teaspoon salt
-1/2 teaspoon pepper
-1/2 cup butter, melted
-3 cups cheddar cheese, grated
- 2 cups sour cream and onion chips

Directions:
Preheat oven to 350
In a large bowl, mix frozen hash browns, sour cream, soup, seasonings and cheddar cheese. Add melted butter to potato mixture. Spread into prepared baking dish (9"/13" pan).
Spread potato chips over the top of casserole. Add extra cheese on top, optional.
Bake uncovered for 1 hour. Serve hot.

Hobby

Day Twenty: A Hobby


Following these guys. I'm really into sports.
Football: Ducks
Baseball: A's
Basketball: Heat
Following those teams is a hobby. Probably my favorite.
I don't have much time for hobbies these days, so that's pretty much it.

Sing Your Heart Out

Day Nineteen: A Talent of Mine

Singing is a talent of mine. I've been doing it since before I can remember.
I was singing Def Leppard when I was two years old.
I've been in choirs since 4th grade.
And I've been singing in the worship band in my church[es] since I was 16.
It's a passion of mine, and I love being able to use my gift.
Especially on Sundays when I can encourage others to use theirs.
I love harmonizing. I'm pretty good at it.
I need to meet me a nice boy with a tenor voice so I can sing with him.
:)

Weddings

Day Eighteen: My Future Wedding

I might be the only girl in the world that hasn't already planned what I want at my wedding.
I want it to be a team effort to plan my wedding.
That team being my future husband and I.
So, honestly, I have no idea what my wedding will be like.
But I can't wait to find out.
Just have to meet the guy.
Minor details.

An Art Piece

Day Seventeen: An Art Piece

I picked this one because it reminds me of Night at the Museum 2. It's pretty awesome.
I'm not really all that into art or anything though.
Call me crazy, but I'm just not.

Hands Down

One of my all time favorite songs. It makes me happy.
And I just found the version that I absolutely LOVE.
Way better than the acoustic!

Breathe in for luck, breath in so deep

This air is blessed you share with me

This night is wild, so calm and dull

These hearts they race from self control

Your legs are smooth as they graze mine

We're doing fine. We're doing nothing at all



My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me

So won't you kill me, so I die happy

My heart is yours to fill or burst

Break or bury, or wear as jewelery

Whichever you prefer



The words are hushed, let's not get busted

Just lay entwined here, undiscovered.

Safe in here from all the stupid questions

"Hey did you get some?" Man that is so dumb.

Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear..

So we can get some.



My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me

So won't you kill me, so I die happy

My heart is yours to fill or burst

To break or bury or wear as jewelery

Whichever you prefer.



Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember

Always remember, the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft lights

The scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers

And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late

And this walk that we shared together

The streets were wet and the gate was locked

So I jumped it, and I let you in

And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist

And you kissed me like you meant it, and I knew that you meant it

That you meant it, that you meant it.

And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it.

A Baby Changes Everything

Day Sixteen: A song that makes me cry

Without fail, the hallelujah chorus in this song makes me cry like a baby. I'm so thankful that that baby wasn't just a baby. He's my Savior. And He really did change everything.

My Role Model

Day Fifteen: My Role Model

This is a tough one, as I have a couple people that I consider role models. I guess two stand out the most.

My sister. Although I didn't get the privilege of growing up with her, she's been such a big influence on my life since I've met her. She probably doesn't even realize how much of an impact she has made. She's a role model in a spiritual sense. Seeing her relationship with God just gives me reassurance that even after a lot of time, I'll still be completely in love with God. She's a role model in a parenting sense because she's such a great mom (even though you probably wouldn't get her to admit to it). I want to be just like her when I get married and have kids of my own. Maybe I'll cook a little more though ;) Just kidding sister. PB&J will definitely be in my recipe book. She's just someone I have looked up to for as long as I can remember.

Another role model is my best friend, Kelly. She is just amazing. She's always asking me if I'm in the word, she's always challenging me to be in it more. Always praying for me and just being a loving person. I was asked the other day who the person was who knew my "deepest, darkest secrets" and it was her. She's a wonderful mom, a great wife and an all around amazing person. I aspire to be like her someday. I know that my life is better because she is in it.

Thanksgiving Vacation

I know it's a few days late, but I've been crazy busy since I've been home, with papers and portfolios, I just didn't have time to upload the pictures. But here are the highlights from my Thanksgiving trip to Eugene. Enjoy.

I had to leave this little guy (Uno) for a few days. I sure missed him by the time I got home. He's been all over me since I've been home, so I'm guessing the feeling is mutual. (This is the first picture I've ever gotten of him when he wasn't moving and he was actually looking at the camera!)

This is what most of our drive over to Eugene looked like. A little more clear on the way back, but dang, that was a lot of snow!

Of course I had to take time for a self portrait. I wouldn't be a girl if I didn't. This was at the store on our pit stop :)



After we finally arrived to Eugene, my brother and I went to the mall to watch a movie (Due Date.. wasn't that impressed) and we saw this guy hanging out in the Oregon store. Quite possibly the coolest shirt ever!! In my opinion anyway. I'm sure many would disagree.

This is me and my grandma. She's crazy, but I love her so much! She always makes us laugh (especially when she falls asleep when we're all awake and she yells at us in her sleep.. kind of hilarious!)

Mom and I took at least 100 pictures to get a good one. It just wasn't working out. So I made this face. It happens.

Then we finally got a decent one.

Trevor and I on the bus to go to Autzen Stadium! Woot! Bus was full of duck fans... I love seeing all the green and yellow! (And black, because apparently one of our new colors is black.. hmm)

In the Mo' Center after the players walked through the fans. I was less than a foot away from the guys. I was in heaven. Probably drooled a little too. Oh, and at least we were #1 when we wore those tattoos, won't work for this weekend!

You can't really see him, but one of those guys bent over is Darron Thomas. Trevor just laughed when he saw they were bent over. He didn't dare ask what I was taking a picture of ;)

Us in our awesome seats! He was tired of taking pictures by then, but it paid off, look who snuck up behind us in our picture! The Duck! :)

The game in motion! We won 48-29. Pretty solid victory, if you ask me. Not worthy of dropping to the #2 spot, but that's alright. We're #1 in my heart!

Non-Fiction

Day Fourteen: A Non-Fiction Book

I won't say too much about this book, because you should read this book, but it's amazing. Wayne Cordeiro is a fantastic writer, and this book made me want to go out and buy all of his books. It was very inspiring and life changing. It should go on everybody's list of books to read. If we were all living our dreams, the world would be a much happier place.

Hoo Are You?

Time for another round of Hoo Are You! I look forward to doing these posts. Especially on Tuesdays. I really dislike Tuesdays. Here we go!

1. Do you like to listen to Christmas music?
I love listening to Christmas music. Especially when there is snow on the ground and it actually feels like Christmas! Faith Hill's Christmas album is probably my favorite.

2. Are you one of those people who get all their shopping done early,

or do you do most of it in December?
Well, now that depends. If I see something I know someone will love, I'll buy it way ahead of Christmas. But if I'm stumped, then my shopping doesn't get done until December.

3. Do you set a budget on how much you spend on each person?
No, not really.

4. Do you send out Christmas cards?
No, but I should. Maybe I'll do that this year.

5. Do you enjoy this holiday season or does it stress you out?
I definitely enjoy the holiday season. It's my favorite time of year, other than June 2nd ;)

Fictional Book

Day Thirteen: Fictional Book

My favorite fictional book used to be Red by Erica Spindler, and while it's still one of my favorites, I have a new favorite. I read this book in just a few hours. K had been trying to get me to read it for MONTHS, maybe even a year. But it just sat on my bookcase. It wasn't until I tried giving it back to her that I realized maybe I should read it. Good choice on my part. It's definitely a girly book, but it's amazing. It will make you laugh, cry and fall in love. It's amazing.

OCD Much?

Day Twelve: Things I'm OCD About

Ducks Football: Don't talk to me when I'm watching the game. Period. Unless you're talking abut how good they look. Talking while the game is on stresses me out.

My Car: I hate it if my car is messy. It's always clean and nice. If it's not, I'll spend a day cleaning it. A nice car reflects a nice person.. right?

Homework: I have to do it as soon as I get home. I can't wait. It has to be done right away.

I'm not really all that OCD though, so yeah. :)